because seriously, it's like a rant. usually i update my status at fb with stuff like this but then i thought, what the hell~

hahaha, I woke up at 10 am and got my first drink at 6 pm. and not a single food get into my stomach yet.why?

it'a a way i did silly silent protest that no one notice but myself.haha, got pissed when no one touched what i cooked yesterday.silly, ain't it? it just that i came home with an empty stomach (at 6pm), with nothing on it except plain water, i walk the way from bus stop to home just to note that my housemate all bought themselves McD. oh well, fuck that. I didn't have a single shred of spare food in the cupboard.I don't have the luxury to buy any.okay, bcoz I'm pissed since no one had a decency to ask if i need anything while they bought food for themselves, I decided to cook a lil bit late (since it's my turn).

and i notice till late of night that no one touch what i cooked. well, i did eat my portion though. beggar dont have choice but to eat kan?i paid rm15 for meal yg i x tahu brape banyak kali i kunyah. hoh, maybe my insecurity dah start terok balik, i keep eating less and less here because i think i dont deserve it. like seriously dont deserve it. i keep myself locked in my room because aku rasa takda maknanya aku keluar. deme xde bende nak cakap ngan aku, aku x rasa aku layak nak cakap dengan mereka yang hebat2. aku x leyh keluar enjoy sama2 ngan dorang sebab aku kena saving duit aku.kalau x, aku kebulur.thus, aku dah out of circle and seriously dont fit in.maybe it's my fault since aku yang locked up myself dalam bilik too much, but mostly because i'm pissed lepas tu dah jadik style lak kalau aku menyampah aku x nak hadap muka orang yang aku tengah sentap. aku naik segan nak mintak tolong hatta tumpang ke kelas atau belikan itu dan ini walaupon aku sangat memerlukan kerana sumpah, kenkadang kome pandang aku cam sampah yang menyusahkan. sometimes i dont like the way that you speak like u have no sensitivity. kalau dah aku x leyh nak keluarkan dwet skunk, be a little bit understanding and try not to demand it right at the moment. mak aku buat nasi lemak je skunk okay. x kan aku nak mintak dwet sesenang hati bila orang tua nak naik patah riuk bangun tengah malam buat nasi untuk niaga?

oh god.aku takut satu hari aku cakap fuck you dekat korang.sumpah.