believe it or not, imma not a child

coz sometimes every single instruction/(nasihat) that you give me made me think that you thought me as an idiot or a child.

'pah, jangan lupe lap dapur'
'pah, jangan lupa buang sampah'
'pah, air tuh mintak dilap dulu kettle tuh sebelom pah masak'
'pah, lampu tuh ndak boleh diguna'

STOP IT WOMAN!! I'M APPROACHING 23!! YOU'RE NOT EVEN THAT OLDER, BITCH!
i may look a lil bit of an airhead, but sometimes I thought that you have a worser habit than me. lugging your laundry till it pile up, than hogging up ampaian with ur laundry yg dah lama tinggal..there's a limitlah bape lama pon nak tinggal, sometimes a week nye baju kau kalah baju aku 2 minggu x basoh. but seriously, baju aku pon bukan banyak sangat pon macam baju korang. aku pakai baju semua rotate, boleh kire ngan jari je bape helai yg aku bawak..mana nak shopping baju der? makan pon sempot.

don't think i didn't notice that you ever really said that stuff to me. me seems like easy prey kan? while everyone is teasing you around wif ur laundry lah, this lah, that lah, the quiet one must be the easiest prey kan? oh seriously, dengan time management issue yg ko ade, aku x taw camne orang kenkadang tahan dengan ko. semua tuh kes sabo je. ko pon bukan bagus mana pon. bende kecik2, janganlah wat macam isu besar kan. tahulah aku nak deal my own mess. aku x kacau barang kau kan.. dude, aku baru nak letak magi lam mangok, ko dah mintak lap dapo? hape, megi aku nye kuah terpecik 100 meter ke atas ke? agak lah kan..

oh btw, stop using loud voices and high pitched gaggled voice. ada kala orang boleh terima, ada kala u just plain annoying, malam2 pon nak jeritkah? ingat kau jerit sumua orang suka? sikit2 dah lah, kalau banyak kali, ade jugak orang yg nak curah sabun dalam tekak tuh.

lepas nieyh boleh kata lak, pah tuh diam ja kejenya, apa pon x maw, asyik2 duduk dalam bilik main laptop. x mau berkomunikasi.hah, kalau aku keluar pon apa aku nak cakap ngan korang? : oh, merlin baru best shiot~: (korang buat muke telan hadap je) :uuhh, sherlock bbc not bad: (telan hadap punye muke laie)  kalau aku nak join korang pon (x ajok kuar) (ala, ko x taw y yg dulu tuh, ha gini ceritenye) (crita yg nie best oowwh) :.........:
sori, xde crite jantan nak kongsi ngan korang. sebab me ish forever alone, no boys equal to losers in ur guys nye dictionary. otaku? double losers points babe. freaking fujoshi? tripled it up.

fuck, it's hard to deal with u guys. and that's the reason i dont fit in. nak crite pasal famili pon bukan kome phm kan..hukhukhuk.

just seriously, dont treat me like an idiot. i may be one, but u are not entitled to treat me just like one.

fuck off and go bugger yourself.

plays the detective games

or more like, silly tittle to flaunting off my crush on BBC"S Sherlock..watch it yet?? if you haven't, IT A MUST!!

this may contain spoiler so~~~

okay, so apparently this Sherlock took place in the 21st century, well, a visit to wikipedia will help to answer lots of your question regarding this series, so I won't explain much on that regard...I'm just going to blabber off why I like it.

for one thing: Sherlock himself
Benedict Cumberbatch is super awesome here, he brought personality to this Holmes. no more those typical icon for sherlock here, u know, magnifying glasses, pipe and all that. This Sherlock wore nicotine patch, long coats and use text, net and all those technology that the new age brought on. Sherlock is eccentric, super-awesome, totally self-centric and super awesome. did I say super awesome yet? yeah, super awesome. He must be regarded with all the awesome thing in this world.

tell you the truth, I didn't finish up the whole series, i still got episode 2 and 3 of season 2 to watch but I cant just keep it in, it threaten to burst out. haha, maybe bcoz sherlock in Scandal Of Belgravia is super smexy that I can't stop fangirling. I even thought that he was romantic, in a sense of word. I do gave my respect to the woman a.k.a Irene. She may play up the ploy according to Moriarty's plan but she got gut. a dominatrix with brain, gut and looks (is nude really is ur battle dress?) ugh, I might scream myself hoarse when he bust her out bout her sentiment towards him. apparently the women likes him, and use his name for the passcode to her phone that contain formidable info.oh, for all the hetero love, sherlock, don't whisper. ugh.

I do take a pity on John, dumped bcoz everyone thought he was gay...gay for Sherlock.hahaha. there might be some bromance here, but it can't beat Merlin! (hey, bromance is a valid tactic to attract viewers, lol, women like this, and apparently woman watch tv more than man so yeah, fanservice is a must)

i didn't tell much about season 1 didn't I? I got carried away with this episode, as you can see. CSI got nothing on this, a pure revamped classic.hahaha. I'm not a big fan of crime series or anything but I got hooked.

I suffered at first trying to understand what Sherlock is saying, no subtittle, and he shooting up words like gun spewing up bullets, pardon this non-english user. I'm just starting to get the hang of it. though I would be lost again whenever he start his deduction.too fast!! hahaha, I need to improve on the language it seems.

this series can't be justified with words. just really, watch it. for all the thing sane.

let the power of scientific deduction carried you away

++chepazana++

++people die, because that's what they do, like Moriarty said++

feeling lonely?feeling depressed? got no one to talk with about ur shitty life.

tunggu semua orang takde, or go behind locked door yg ade cermin, dalam toilet pon xpe, hadap cermin tuh dan cakap semuanya kat cermin tuh...at least reflection diri korang akan dengar segalanya, siap nangis sekali kalau u'all menangis. tho, ini sebenarnya tanda2 anda memerlukan pakar sakit jiwa.

on further note, being a misfit sucks so much

and i really miss the time i do my growing up dekat maahad dulu. at least i get real social life.now? even the net pon x leyh do much.

fuck my life

rambling

lol, to wake up around 3.30 am every day for three weeks is annoying yo

still am a noob for almost everything yo~~ coloring, writing,baking,drawing,being a proper human = loser forever. yesh!!

thick-skinned is so not on lately -blaming the inferiority complex- there goes the confidence :whoosh:

two months and counting being drowned in BBC's Merlin fandom : tied in, with rocks and all and plop into the fandom figurative ocean: fanfics, spoiler, behind the scenes, interview, bloopers...even if someone manage to hauled me up, CPR might not be necessary..gone forever it seems

feeling guilty I'm forgetting other fandom? not really...they make me up and shape me like this..though it seems like I'm climbing some sort of invincible stairs, first it's sasunaru, then some other manga characters pairing, jumping into the mainstream yaoi, after that, hello potterverse, some drarry fic for me, oh, and i'll never gonna put aside albus/scorp, now, it's a series. preferably arthur/merlin, though seriously i'm not picky..lol, got to taste my first RPF here.lololo, so grateful of fic rec <3

social network make me feel worthless and useless and generally like an attention whore, shameless shameless attention whore who post inane stuff bout what I only noe, with no one really to share..blame me in being excited for whatever Colin did, or fic that I read, I get off on that. the small guilty pleasure? Nad who is never tired of my incessant rambling, and being a human that I can touch. and hear, and make eye contact to vent it all out (n I think this is a vice versa thing, she need to vent off too) and not some disembodiment for people who is out there doing god, i dunno. me to blame, of course, being the busy (query note here) peeps. apparently i didnt fill up my social quota nicely, the bar become red..send me some social bunny, sims creator.

dear someone, i hope your bout of relapse gone quickly..i'm praying for you
and dear someone, sorry for not following up after what happen.I'm gonna call ya after I have enough credit..I'm still in my strict budget=starvation phase
and dear someone other, I'm sorry for being such a noob that I dont really noe how to use that site to keep up and throw in some shite from the sixth pharagraph for other reasons that bear no repeating.lol.be happy, wherever you are <3<3<3

dear bloggie, i <3 you.

:rambling ftw:

:ish forever alone, in every sense of speaking, no thanks to self:

takde maknenye

kalau cuba nak perang f5 kat facebook.tambah laie kalau line sentap macam sial kan..aku kejap isi nama dah on ade, pastuh ilang tetiba ganti ngan nama orang lain...cibai sungguh tenet tuh..

sebab aku taw aku antara orang yg isik awal, ko nak kata nama orang lain kat finalize doc tuh cakaplah, xkan r nama aku yg tetiba ada patuh hilang pastuh tetiba tempat tuh da penuh aku nak tambah no 13 kan? aku bukan sesedap kepala lutut aku r nak bising, aku taw group atif n adie lambat sikit kowt enter dari aku, lepas nama jaja, dah establish nama aku, kat half pc orang lain ade, kat half yg lain xde, nak kata aku salah,\? group atif ngan hadi salah? salahkan tenet, bukan salah kami semua.lantak korang nak gaduh cam kimak kat situ kan..

aku nye alasan nak gi kajang senang je, aku nak duduk umah, xde pon aku tumpang umah paman buang kat saujana utama..weyh, x semua orang cam korang, kentut kuar dwet..aku nieyh mak pak x kerja, adek aku ntah lari gi pondok mana pastuh sesuka hati kan x bagitau aku, adek pompuan aku kene hulur dwet elaun die nak bagi aku makan...celah mana nak korek dwet nak bayar sewa umah..ingat sesenang hati ke aku nak mintak dwet ngan bapak aku?hari ni mintak esok dapat...korang dapat PT full, elaun JPA pon komplain cam pukimak..weyh, ader orang dapat separuh je PT taw..korang x taw seksa nak nahan dwet yg separuh tuh camne..ko pikir aku nieyh kurus, kurus sesaje? kurus aku bersebab sial...aku dah tak terkira berapa banyak kali aku kene berlapar sebab aku xde dwet nak makan nasi..orang kat umah pon makan nasi goreng je straight seminggu, aku nak makan nasik leuk sesedap? aku ada isi perut lagi lah..

korang nak kata aku bangang ke, bebal ke, pantat ke, cakap r...aku x sanggup nak cakap ngan mak aku yg aku kene posting ntah dekat mana, pastuh nak kene carik dwet sewa advance pulak ntok umah sewa kawasan umah tu. adek2 aku tuh sekolah pon hutang yuran..sekolah rendah lak tuh..kalau alasan korang nak posting situ memang semata nak carik experience yang power, kimak r korang..kalau dah bebal, camne power tempat tuh pon bebal jugak ko.kan? lantak r, aku entittle nak broke down, kata r aku bodoh sebab nangis x dapat enter nama, lain orang lain konflik..korang x taw jangan nak banyak bukak mulut..aku sumpah rasa cam kimak bila tengok nama faresa kat situ...hoi anjing, jangan ingat aku lupa muka ko tyme tuh ye...ko dah r pakai orang tengah memula bagitaw yg kita kene berusaha ke sungai buloh, pastuh bile sg buloh dah penuh n aku ngan pauline lari ampang, ko bwat muke cam babi bakar kat situ...kenapa ko tukar hospital pulak? alasan hapa ko nak bagi? carut r perangai ko, kalau aku nak maki ko, aku kene maki pakai mulut, baru puas...perangai cam celaka..klu nak tepon balak ade je dwet, nak mesej aku suruh gi spital mana tetiba jadik muflis...kalau aku 10 hinggit boleh tahan 3 minggu, aku mmg ketawa tengok manusia kene topup 30 hengget tetiap minggu

dah r, carut betol semua ni