feeling lonely?feeling depressed? got no one to talk with about ur shitty life.
tunggu semua orang takde, or go behind locked door yg ade cermin, dalam toilet pon xpe, hadap cermin tuh dan cakap semuanya kat cermin tuh...at least reflection diri korang akan dengar segalanya, siap nangis sekali kalau u'all menangis. tho, ini sebenarnya tanda2 anda memerlukan pakar sakit jiwa.
on further note, being a misfit sucks so much
and i really miss the time i do my growing up dekat maahad dulu. at least i get real social life.now? even the net pon x leyh do much.
fuck my life
Saturday, December 24, 2011
Monday, December 12, 2011
rambling
lol, to wake up around 3.30 am every day for three weeks is annoying yo
still am a noob for almost everything yo~~ coloring, writing,baking,drawing,being a proper human = loser forever. yesh!!
thick-skinned is so not on lately -blaming the inferiority complex- there goes the confidence :whoosh:
two months and counting being drowned in BBC's Merlin fandom : tied in, with rocks and all and plop into the fandom figurative ocean: fanfics, spoiler, behind the scenes, interview, bloopers...even if someone manage to hauled me up, CPR might not be necessary..gone forever it seems
feeling guilty I'm forgetting other fandom? not really...they make me up and shape me like this..though it seems like I'm climbing some sort of invincible stairs, first it's sasunaru, then some other manga characters pairing, jumping into the mainstream yaoi, after that, hello potterverse, some drarry fic for me, oh, and i'll never gonna put aside albus/scorp, now, it's a series. preferably arthur/merlin, though seriously i'm not picky..lol, got to taste my first RPF here.lololo, so grateful of fic rec <3
social network make me feel worthless and useless and generally like an attention whore, shameless shameless attention whore who post inane stuff bout what I only noe, with no one really to share..blame me in being excited for whatever Colin did, or fic that I read, I get off on that. the small guilty pleasure? Nad who is never tired of my incessant rambling, and being a human that I can touch. and hear, and make eye contact to vent it all out (n I think this is a vice versa thing, she need to vent off too) and not some disembodiment for people who is out there doing god, i dunno. me to blame, of course, being the busy (query note here) peeps. apparently i didnt fill up my social quota nicely, the bar become red..send me some social bunny, sims creator.
dear someone, i hope your bout of relapse gone quickly..i'm praying for you
and dear someone, sorry for not following up after what happen.I'm gonna call ya after I have enough credit..I'm still in my strict budget=starvation phase
and dear someone other, I'm sorry for being such a noob that I dont really noe how to use that site to keep up and throw in some shite from the sixth pharagraph for other reasons that bear no repeating.lol.be happy, wherever you are <3<3<3
dear bloggie, i <3 you.
still am a noob for almost everything yo~~ coloring, writing,baking,drawing,being a proper human = loser forever. yesh!!
thick-skinned is so not on lately -blaming the inferiority complex- there goes the confidence :whoosh:
two months and counting being drowned in BBC's Merlin fandom : tied in, with rocks and all and plop into the fandom figurative ocean: fanfics, spoiler, behind the scenes, interview, bloopers...even if someone manage to hauled me up, CPR might not be necessary..gone forever it seems
feeling guilty I'm forgetting other fandom? not really...they make me up and shape me like this..though it seems like I'm climbing some sort of invincible stairs, first it's sasunaru, then some other manga characters pairing, jumping into the mainstream yaoi, after that, hello potterverse, some drarry fic for me, oh, and i'll never gonna put aside albus/scorp, now, it's a series. preferably arthur/merlin, though seriously i'm not picky..lol, got to taste my first RPF here.lololo, so grateful of fic rec <3
social network make me feel worthless and useless and generally like an attention whore, shameless shameless attention whore who post inane stuff bout what I only noe, with no one really to share..blame me in being excited for whatever Colin did, or fic that I read, I get off on that. the small guilty pleasure? Nad who is never tired of my incessant rambling, and being a human that I can touch. and hear, and make eye contact to vent it all out (n I think this is a vice versa thing, she need to vent off too) and not some disembodiment for people who is out there doing god, i dunno. me to blame, of course, being the busy (query note here) peeps. apparently i didnt fill up my social quota nicely, the bar become red..send me some social bunny, sims creator.
dear someone, i hope your bout of relapse gone quickly..i'm praying for you
and dear someone, sorry for not following up after what happen.I'm gonna call ya after I have enough credit..I'm still in my strict budget=starvation phase
and dear someone other, I'm sorry for being such a noob that I dont really noe how to use that site to keep up and throw in some shite from the sixth pharagraph for other reasons that bear no repeating.lol.be happy, wherever you are <3<3<3
dear bloggie, i <3 you.
:rambling ftw:
:ish forever alone, in every sense of speaking, no thanks to self:
Saturday, December 10, 2011
takde maknenye
kalau cuba nak perang f5 kat facebook.tambah laie kalau line sentap macam sial kan..aku kejap isi nama dah on ade, pastuh ilang tetiba ganti ngan nama orang lain...cibai sungguh tenet tuh..
sebab aku taw aku antara orang yg isik awal, ko nak kata nama orang lain kat finalize doc tuh cakaplah, xkan r nama aku yg tetiba ada patuh hilang pastuh tetiba tempat tuh da penuh aku nak tambah no 13 kan? aku bukan sesedap kepala lutut aku r nak bising, aku taw group atif n adie lambat sikit kowt enter dari aku, lepas nama jaja, dah establish nama aku, kat half pc orang lain ade, kat half yg lain xde, nak kata aku salah,\? group atif ngan hadi salah? salahkan tenet, bukan salah kami semua.lantak korang nak gaduh cam kimak kat situ kan..
aku nye alasan nak gi kajang senang je, aku nak duduk umah, xde pon aku tumpang umah paman buang kat saujana utama..weyh, x semua orang cam korang, kentut kuar dwet..aku nieyh mak pak x kerja, adek aku ntah lari gi pondok mana pastuh sesuka hati kan x bagitau aku, adek pompuan aku kene hulur dwet elaun die nak bagi aku makan...celah mana nak korek dwet nak bayar sewa umah..ingat sesenang hati ke aku nak mintak dwet ngan bapak aku?hari ni mintak esok dapat...korang dapat PT full, elaun JPA pon komplain cam pukimak..weyh, ader orang dapat separuh je PT taw..korang x taw seksa nak nahan dwet yg separuh tuh camne..ko pikir aku nieyh kurus, kurus sesaje? kurus aku bersebab sial...aku dah tak terkira berapa banyak kali aku kene berlapar sebab aku xde dwet nak makan nasi..orang kat umah pon makan nasi goreng je straight seminggu, aku nak makan nasik leuk sesedap? aku ada isi perut lagi lah..
korang nak kata aku bangang ke, bebal ke, pantat ke, cakap r...aku x sanggup nak cakap ngan mak aku yg aku kene posting ntah dekat mana, pastuh nak kene carik dwet sewa advance pulak ntok umah sewa kawasan umah tu. adek2 aku tuh sekolah pon hutang yuran..sekolah rendah lak tuh..kalau alasan korang nak posting situ memang semata nak carik experience yang power, kimak r korang..kalau dah bebal, camne power tempat tuh pon bebal jugak ko.kan? lantak r, aku entittle nak broke down, kata r aku bodoh sebab nangis x dapat enter nama, lain orang lain konflik..korang x taw jangan nak banyak bukak mulut..aku sumpah rasa cam kimak bila tengok nama faresa kat situ...hoi anjing, jangan ingat aku lupa muka ko tyme tuh ye...ko dah r pakai orang tengah memula bagitaw yg kita kene berusaha ke sungai buloh, pastuh bile sg buloh dah penuh n aku ngan pauline lari ampang, ko bwat muke cam babi bakar kat situ...kenapa ko tukar hospital pulak? alasan hapa ko nak bagi? carut r perangai ko, kalau aku nak maki ko, aku kene maki pakai mulut, baru puas...perangai cam celaka..klu nak tepon balak ade je dwet, nak mesej aku suruh gi spital mana tetiba jadik muflis...kalau aku 10 hinggit boleh tahan 3 minggu, aku mmg ketawa tengok manusia kene topup 30 hengget tetiap minggu
dah r, carut betol semua ni
sebab aku taw aku antara orang yg isik awal, ko nak kata nama orang lain kat finalize doc tuh cakaplah, xkan r nama aku yg tetiba ada patuh hilang pastuh tetiba tempat tuh da penuh aku nak tambah no 13 kan? aku bukan sesedap kepala lutut aku r nak bising, aku taw group atif n adie lambat sikit kowt enter dari aku, lepas nama jaja, dah establish nama aku, kat half pc orang lain ade, kat half yg lain xde, nak kata aku salah,\? group atif ngan hadi salah? salahkan tenet, bukan salah kami semua.lantak korang nak gaduh cam kimak kat situ kan..
aku nye alasan nak gi kajang senang je, aku nak duduk umah, xde pon aku tumpang umah paman buang kat saujana utama..weyh, x semua orang cam korang, kentut kuar dwet..aku nieyh mak pak x kerja, adek aku ntah lari gi pondok mana pastuh sesuka hati kan x bagitau aku, adek pompuan aku kene hulur dwet elaun die nak bagi aku makan...celah mana nak korek dwet nak bayar sewa umah..ingat sesenang hati ke aku nak mintak dwet ngan bapak aku?hari ni mintak esok dapat...korang dapat PT full, elaun JPA pon komplain cam pukimak..weyh, ader orang dapat separuh je PT taw..korang x taw seksa nak nahan dwet yg separuh tuh camne..ko pikir aku nieyh kurus, kurus sesaje? kurus aku bersebab sial...aku dah tak terkira berapa banyak kali aku kene berlapar sebab aku xde dwet nak makan nasi..orang kat umah pon makan nasi goreng je straight seminggu, aku nak makan nasik leuk sesedap? aku ada isi perut lagi lah..
korang nak kata aku bangang ke, bebal ke, pantat ke, cakap r...aku x sanggup nak cakap ngan mak aku yg aku kene posting ntah dekat mana, pastuh nak kene carik dwet sewa advance pulak ntok umah sewa kawasan umah tu. adek2 aku tuh sekolah pon hutang yuran..sekolah rendah lak tuh..kalau alasan korang nak posting situ memang semata nak carik experience yang power, kimak r korang..kalau dah bebal, camne power tempat tuh pon bebal jugak ko.kan? lantak r, aku entittle nak broke down, kata r aku bodoh sebab nangis x dapat enter nama, lain orang lain konflik..korang x taw jangan nak banyak bukak mulut..aku sumpah rasa cam kimak bila tengok nama faresa kat situ...hoi anjing, jangan ingat aku lupa muka ko tyme tuh ye...ko dah r pakai orang tengah memula bagitaw yg kita kene berusaha ke sungai buloh, pastuh bile sg buloh dah penuh n aku ngan pauline lari ampang, ko bwat muke cam babi bakar kat situ...kenapa ko tukar hospital pulak? alasan hapa ko nak bagi? carut r perangai ko, kalau aku nak maki ko, aku kene maki pakai mulut, baru puas...perangai cam celaka..klu nak tepon balak ade je dwet, nak mesej aku suruh gi spital mana tetiba jadik muflis...kalau aku 10 hinggit boleh tahan 3 minggu, aku mmg ketawa tengok manusia kene topup 30 hengget tetiap minggu
dah r, carut betol semua ni
